Holy Spirit comes in like a dove and begins very gently revealing lies, while Jesus knocks on the door of our hearts and beckons us to be with Him, and He becomes the door that we pass through for our healing. All the while the ABBA of Jesus is shinning the light and exposing the darkness within me. What a glorious life we live in the Spirit. The ever-giving, overflowing love of the Trinity bringing healing and wholeness to our lives. Patterns in our lives that reveal brokenness become the crucible from which the very power of God comes to influence a change in my very foundation. These patterns of behavior become the trials of life, as we walk closer and closer with the Lord we know these patterns of behavior don’t reflect the righteousness that the Lord died to give us. We are living with this emotional torment that is the opposite of the peace that we are to carry and we come and throw ourselves into the arms of Father and cry, “HELP”! It took years even for me to run to the Father, religion taught me to hide from my Father, with all of its lies about who He is and who I am. But now in relationship with Him He shows me truth about who He is, I run to Him. I know He is faithful to show me when the lie got implanted, how I partner with the lie and how the enemy lined up facts to support the lie. His truth is now my reality!
His truth says I didn’t do anything to cause people to reject me. There is nothing inherently wrong with me that I need to hide from people, or from myself. The Lord in His graciousness showed me the actual wound that contained these lies. It was gaping open and just like that I saw stitches being sown across it. The fruit of this healing is words spoken against my decisions or actions are not spoken because I am inherently wrong, even though I might be lacking in a particular revelation, I am not inherently wrong, nor defective in the way I was created. Therefore, I am not crushed in my identity by negative reactions to me, because my identity has changed. I am beautifully and wonderfully made and no created thing can change my identity by their words. The depth of that statement is the depth that the Lord is infusing His love into that very deep wound created by the lies I believed.
At this very juncture the Lord in His graciousness reinterprets the events of our lives by showing us the real truth. With my identity being constantly revealed as the Lord lays precept upon precept or truth upon truth of who I am, no longer am I tossed about by every decision and every harsh and unloving word from the people in my life. We all have personal freedoms to choose the course of our lives. We all have people in our lives that make decisions that negatively affect our lives. Through this intentional sanctification time with the Lord my identity as a son of God is being strengthened and I am free to allow others’ personal freedom to choose the course of their lives while I am abundantly free to die to my own rights to have my personal freedom honored. In that very place where I choose to die to my own rights to personal freedom I am choosing to be a bondservant to my Lord. The very choice allows for a grace to minister to those around me, why? Because I have released them from the box I have placed them in, the box of “dangerous,” or the box of “don’t trust them” I am choosing to forgive those who violate my rights to personal freedom and I release any inner demands I might have to have my core values honored. They owe me nothing, but I choose to honor them. There is something so deep behind these statements that whispers on the outliers of my ability to comprehend the very otherness of who the Lord is. It feels like a rock that will never never fail in supporting me. It’s this safety, this security this sure foundation...that can only be found in Jesus the door ...I can finally breathe..
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