It seemed as though everyone in my life including me were in this place of transition. The ending of a season of life and the begining of a new way of life. As the Lord would have it, these transitions were happening all on the same day. Creating for me a climate that needed to be synchronized so that I could be a part of the transitions of those so close to me. I knew Jehova sneaky was up to something. Sometimes you are so close to a situation that you cant see the magnitude, until you have some distance from it, for me it was on the third day, and the day of the much awaited closing of my house. Even as I was there experiencing the transition and its completed movement I felt this numbness and a closing of my eyes and ears in some kind of self protection that I will ask the Lord about.
My daughter Katie was due with her third child on the day that I was moving to the town she lived in, which was about a four hour drive from my current home. I was completely out of control over my move date, as it was dependent on the closing of my house which was a moving target. The date of closing changed at least five times! I really wanted to be here in my new home prior to the birth, mostly so I could be with my grand children and watch their awe as baby brother came into this world! The baby did not come on his due date but was a week to the day late. I had time to move in sort of and get a little rest before the day arrived. That birth became an object lesson for me.
Katie and her husband David had already experienced a supernatural birth of her second child and set the bar for the same experience with their third. This process of walking with the Lord closely in the preceeding weeks is key to the experience. When pain comes we know it travels with fear and fear has no place in the birthing room. This partnership with husband and wife to battle the fear during the pain is a dance where the movements have been build in the foundation of trust. This birth went beyond supernatural in the way we define it, it became a fuller expression of the experience.
Katie and David had the most beautiful midwife that guided the movements of the transition. When Katie got to the birthing center at 8;30 she was 8 centimeters dialated and the birth did not happen until 6:45 pm. All natural no drugs just the voices of trust speaking through the pain and fear for all those hours. Mothers know the definition of transition, it is the time of the most intense pain, physically the body of the mother is moving to open the way for the baby to move down the birth canal. Katie stayed in transition for 8 hours, requiring a level of hyper focus to concentrate on David’s voice to fight the fear and pain. This is is my definition of FAITH! There is such a reckless abandonment to love in this beautiful picture. This partnership that they have formed in this marriage, one of trust and total heart commitment, gave everything for the best birth for their son.
The object lesson for me at the close of the biggest transition of my life was the picture of the partnership between Katie and David. David said to me on the second day after the birth, "we couldn't rely on the midwife she was only able to guide us, nor could we go to the hospital we just had faith that this was our process."
In the immense pain that life brings faith allows me to hang onto the Lord, knowing that He is good and He is there. He is completely committed to me, giving me in the moment His entire heart. Whatever comes on the otherside of the pain our Lord is completely vested, you have His entire heart. You can even squeeze His arm so hard during the contractions to draw blood, He is not offended!
No one could fight this battle of transition with me except the Lord. Leaving predator relationships and starting this new life is to trust that this is my process, there really is no one I can depend on to do it for me and there is no turning back. My FAITH is being developed by the author and finisher Jesus the Christ.
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